Saturday, January 14, 2006
I remember that during friday's assembly with the principal speech talking about emotion quotient. That speech was inspiring as they are many things in the world that a degree or how smart you could get you that. It is about honesty, empathy, sincerity and everything about kindness. It could make you a cut above the rest and showing your leadership potential too. However, how far is being kind to others adequate? More often, I found that by being kind to others is a sin and a disadvanatage to me. One example- I offered my mashmallows to everyone. I did not mind giving my mashmallows up to everyone as to me, I want to get rid of it either way. What upset me was that they used my mashmallows as something to play with and attack with. That was not upsetting enough. The most upsetting part was that they used it to attack me. It was like bitting the hand that feeds you. Anyway, at that time, I felt like hitting his adam apple and crushed it but come to think of it, I manage myself and told myself it is not worth it; he is not worth it. A point to remember is not to offer mashmallows ever again. Anyway, I do not normally accept people's offer unless they approach me. I would either reject them to the point they gave up or look away from them. I did not like accepting help. I rather help myself and do what I could to savage the situation than asking a helping hand. Maybe, this is the independent side of me and of course, my upbringing. My parents had taught well though, telling me to cook for myself, wash clothes for myself and everything as if I do not do them, they would not do them either way. However, I am also a strong believer of a team. Being independent is one thing, but being in a team is a total different experience. In a team, there is a spirit that never dies. There is always support, care and concern for each other. I think that being in a right team is important as it really shows how much bonded you are than being someone is alienated. A good team would accept individuality and come together as a similarity. These would work well in a team, not creating tension and clinques. That leads me to another matter- in CT session, our teacher point out the problem of clinques. No doubt in our CT class, there are alot of clinques. From the girls to even the boys, there are many. Perhaps it is so difficult to come together as a class given our large number of students but it is not impossible to come as a group. Bascially, we accept each other as one individuality but we do not communicate that efficiently as well as others in the class. For me, being an antisocial, I do not mind clinques as it does not bothers me that much. Friends in the class are not so important to me as it is of family bonds or other friends. If you just do not click with others, you just would not. If you just want to talk to other people, you will just talk to them anyway. However, having said that, I know that there are clinques in our class that are very unhealthy; clinques that bring the whole class down. For instance, there is one time whereby the whole class have to wait for one clinque to start a chemistry lesson. I know it is on prupose that they would make full use of first ten minutes of the lesson for something else instead of coming earlier for lesson. There are also clinques that talk something bad about people in the class. When you heard about it, you naturally feel very bad about it and would you want to come to this class,knowing someone do not like you? I bet not. Come to think of it, it showed that the clinques does not have class and acceptance of one another. It showed how little eq they really have over this things. You have to accept who people are and work with it. To be honest with you, I hate some people in class and I do tell them upfront that I do not like them but I would not be so despicable to say something bad about others. I stand by people, even if you are my most hated classmate when someone say something bad that is untrue. Anyway, it brings me to one incident in the school's toilet when some talk something bad about this CCA friend of mine. He wrote 'XXX is gay'. This is an absolute nonsenses. Making a joke over this is not nice; it shows no class and definitely, no definite friend you are as you could have done it to your friends too. This is really upsetting and I would stand by him, to find out who the hell had done that........
what we could have been, 9:29 PM.
