Sunday, January 08, 2006
In life, there are many junctions leading to choose which path to follow. Ultimately, it comes down to you who will choose what you really want in life and this creates what you call a 'destiny'. Perhaps, I would give you an ideal. For instance, you could buy food from a fastfood restaurant, priced at $7++ which could be as satisfying as food from a hawker centre $3++. However, a point to note, you could also stay at home and eat at home which could be less than perhaps $2. Therefore, life has always be a funny thing. It is about making choices. Certainly, I had made choices in life that I had regretted after awhile. There are also choices that I had suddenly became bold to take. Many people, among my age, might think that the choices I had made were over the top, or even ridiculous. However, when they really think back on what they had done, what they had achieved, what results they had gotten and decided by saying 'this is unfair to me!'. However, they had not reflected on their own actions, on the sacrifices they had not made to come to certain stages where they attained some kind of success. They could say 'I do my best and that's what matters?' However, is there all they got to attain the high level of expectation. Undoubtly, they are smart, they manage well enough, but have they make the changes and sacrifices to do what it takes to lead them to somewhere they always wanted? Deep down inside, is that what they always wanted?
I had changed a lot in these whole 'going to school thing'. I did a lot of reflections on what I had done. I knew that to get somewhere, I needed to do some sacrifices. I knew that in order to achieve something huge requires time and effort. I also knew that many people would be against me being someone who is always hungry. I wanted it so badly. I wanted my grades real badly. I wanted to make changes in my life. I knew by doing so, I would be alone but I do not care. Deep down inside, I wanted to get into a medical school. I knew what I wanted, it is inside me. I knew by doing so, I had to sacrifice friends' and family's time. I knew that but I had no choice. I had a lot to study. I had a lot more to cover. I believed in the importance of self studying. I knew that if I know something well, I am capable and confident to do well. That is me. That is who I am. That is what I always wanted .......... REAL BADLY!!!!!!! Gone are the days where I fool around, being innocent and naive. Gone are the days where I could be with friends for like 24/7. Gone are the days where I could be obessed with girls and more girls. I wanted to concentrate on what I have been doing these days, rather, I wanted to do more, so that it is enough to get me what I wanted to achieve. Look at me closely, this is me, I am ALVIN.
I had changed a lot in these whole 'going to school thing'. I did a lot of reflections on what I had done. I knew that to get somewhere, I needed to do some sacrifices. I knew that in order to achieve something huge requires time and effort. I also knew that many people would be against me being someone who is always hungry. I wanted it so badly. I wanted my grades real badly. I wanted to make changes in my life. I knew by doing so, I would be alone but I do not care. Deep down inside, I wanted to get into a medical school. I knew what I wanted, it is inside me. I knew by doing so, I had to sacrifice friends' and family's time. I knew that but I had no choice. I had a lot to study. I had a lot more to cover. I believed in the importance of self studying. I knew that if I know something well, I am capable and confident to do well. That is me. That is who I am. That is what I always wanted .......... REAL BADLY!!!!!!! Gone are the days where I fool around, being innocent and naive. Gone are the days where I could be with friends for like 24/7. Gone are the days where I could be obessed with girls and more girls. I wanted to concentrate on what I have been doing these days, rather, I wanted to do more, so that it is enough to get me what I wanted to achieve. Look at me closely, this is me, I am ALVIN.
what we could have been, 11:31 PM.
