Wednesday, January 04, 2006
There comes to a decision of me to choose between being ccaless and taking up electives or to choose to continue in Odac. On a personal level, I felt that there is no need in me participating in Odac functions as
1. My opinion is either (a) neglected or (b) ignored.
2. There is more socialising than doing work or dicussion.
3. The duration of every meeting is so long for like 5 hours.
4. I was practically doing nothing than slacking in this room.
5. There is no skills learnt.
6. It is two day per week while others only one day.
There are more, but this are the main reasons that I hated to go to sessions like that. On a more controversial note, there is some depth to my acknowledge that I surrender. Odac is more of a socialising group. To me, you could never make me talk unless you prompt me to or you are like one of my good friends. In Odac, I saw no connections with anyone except perhaps King Ting, Alvin Wong and his gang. I do not feel like I belong to Odac or perhaps to the people around me in Odac. I have come to certain conclusions about the situation in Odac. I search for my inner desire and conclude that Odac belong to me but I do not belong to it. It is complicated and complex. Certain things have changed and everyone change. I could not be hopeful to see myself, as a Odacian in contributing to this society. Perhaps it would be fortunate for me if I am at a stage where everyone seems to be nice when we are in first three months. There are more attitudes, clinques and less friendly as it is used to. That is why I decidd to take matters in my own hands and take charge of what I want to do. I would take up electives, perhaps swimming, kayaking or anything that could give me a skill. At least it is me, and not me for everyone, just me for me.
1. My opinion is either (a) neglected or (b) ignored.
2. There is more socialising than doing work or dicussion.
3. The duration of every meeting is so long for like 5 hours.
4. I was practically doing nothing than slacking in this room.
5. There is no skills learnt.
6. It is two day per week while others only one day.
There are more, but this are the main reasons that I hated to go to sessions like that. On a more controversial note, there is some depth to my acknowledge that I surrender. Odac is more of a socialising group. To me, you could never make me talk unless you prompt me to or you are like one of my good friends. In Odac, I saw no connections with anyone except perhaps King Ting, Alvin Wong and his gang. I do not feel like I belong to Odac or perhaps to the people around me in Odac. I have come to certain conclusions about the situation in Odac. I search for my inner desire and conclude that Odac belong to me but I do not belong to it. It is complicated and complex. Certain things have changed and everyone change. I could not be hopeful to see myself, as a Odacian in contributing to this society. Perhaps it would be fortunate for me if I am at a stage where everyone seems to be nice when we are in first three months. There are more attitudes, clinques and less friendly as it is used to. That is why I decidd to take matters in my own hands and take charge of what I want to do. I would take up electives, perhaps swimming, kayaking or anything that could give me a skill. At least it is me, and not me for everyone, just me for me.
what we could have been, 10:03 PM.
