Saturday, April 26, 2008
It is sometimes really hard to know what the person is thinking. Besides, I have the tendency to making a conclusion from the first impression, therefore, I tend to give other people a chance or a benefit of a doubt. Start my bitching: I had communications issues with this one particular guy. From the beginning of the day, he had been rubbing me the wrong way. Firstly when I went to the room, he was like why are you, why can't you just help to do some stuff? Why can't you take your initiative. The tone sucks and he was practically yelling. Is it my fault that I did not help him? Am I obliged to help him in the first place? I would have help him if he did not yell at me like that. I was like ok, fine, I just do it. The next thing, we went back to the room. I told him, I had to go somewhere to do our stuff. He was like no and no and no. He was yelling and I was like: ok, he said need to ask the person-in-charge and I was ok, I ask the person-in-charge but you no need to yell and make a big fuss over it. So I went to tell the person-in-charge and he was fine and that settled everything. I did not what the hell is wrong with him? He seemed to be upset over almost everything. My sergant and I agreed that he acted like he is the big boss down here. Fine, I went up to do my stuff. Then, I had a call which I thought was him but it was not. He asked me where I was. Me, being the bitchy one, would say why should I tell you? I said that and hang up. I already had issues with him when I told him where I was before, he gave me that stupid tone that why should I know? Go and tell your your superior la. After that when I came back, he shouted, yelled at me and I apologised. My Sergeant wanted to step in but guess what happened. He yelled back, ' Excuse me Sergeant....' I was pissed. I literally wanted to punch his face. If it is Yong Xiang, he would have shouted back and created the lastest whoohaa. ( I should have done that because I am the bitchiest one) Immediately, I retorted and said to him, 'why you treated him this way, if you have issues with me, you settle with me, not treat him this way.' My superior came in and he yelled back and go and eat your lunch. My Sergeant was pissed. He told me that if it is outside, he would have yelled back and scolded the person. I felt very bad because there he was trying to help me settle issues with that stupid person but he was being attacked just like Yong Xiang and Sergant Sim incident. I completely if not suppressed myself and asked him. At first, he was avoiding the issues with me. I had to dig and dig and dig until he finally opened up to the underlying issues with me. I mean if he had issues with me, he could have told me and not be so unhappy about it. Am I that unapproachable? Maybe because I am too bitchy, that's why! I told him about the previous incident what happened regarding Stanley but what the hell, I was over and done with that person. He was like linking the past to the present. I was like I am doing my job and if you want me to do something, I would have done it. RIGHT?????? But come to think about it, I really can suppress myself from being too crazy and of course bitchy. He said that other people feels that I am mean to him. I asked him do you think I am mean to you? he said no, because he thought we are friends. I asked him again do you think I am mean to you? He said no again. I asked him the final time. He said yes. (FINALLY!) I hated him from not being honest with me. He cared about how other people feel about me treating him vs me treating others? HUH?!?!?! I treated everyone the same and I did how I feel and bitched if I am angry. I can be very mean (BITCHY!) if I am angry and that's me what. However, at the end of the day, I would not be angry over a thing very long and then I would be nice t you all over again. I would say hi and bye to him. You asked for mutual respect. Have I not give you that? I did not yell at you like you did to me. I did what I was told. Isn't that called mutual respect?? Even if you yelled at me for asking too much questions, have I even said anything. Iwas like ok about it but right then, I did not see the things eye to eye. He was crazy. Anyway, I did told him that he must be honest with me. I did not knwo what went through his head. He obviously cared about how people feel about him. He was really very sensitive and I thought he maybe in the end trapped in the office politics forever which was meaningless to me. I hated it and I always dismiss them as rubbish. Anyway, from now on, I would try my best not to hurt this sensitive new age, egotistic guy from the ancient world. Anyway, I managed to hug my dearest friend from my previous organisation and I am happy about it! SHOUTOUTS TO THEM!!! Those are the people that I cared about deeply and always would. They asked me about my new organisation and my course. I told them the lastest things and happenings and I also told them I still do not like my organisation. It was like they did care about me more than the people that I recently worked with. I think that even the incik forget that I got night classes at all but my dearest ex s ir still asked me if I was coping well with my course and asked me if there is anyway he could help. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MYCURRENT ORGANISATION?? Still hated the place. Whoohooo! End of BITCHING!
what we could have been, 1:49 AM.
